I wrote a song this week, which started out as a song about things in my past that I had not written about before, and ended up as a massive polemic.
Halfway through writing, my mind wandered onto everything in the last few weeks that has upset or angered me in current events, or the world outside my house. So here is my new song - see if you can spot where I lost it.
If I gave you anything, I'd guess it was the confidence to leave
If you're trying to get better then it's best to do it far away from me
But if you want to be with him, then you can tell me something I'll believe (like the truth!)
Yeah, if I gave you anything, I'd guess it was the confidence to leave
If anybody needs me, I'll be lying in a gutter in the street,
With the ghosts of conversations seeping in and waterlogging both my feet
And if you can't be arsed to fuck me up, then I don't really want to take the lead
So if anybody needs me, I'll be lying in a gutter in the street
She's my sister, she's the only one I've got, and I had just begun to see
How she suffered at the hands of every mood and every whim that passed through me
And I always used to worry that I'd spoiled the person she was meant to be
But now she's doing well and all that worrying has turned into relief
Some people are nightmares and their bullshit takes its toll on everyone
They can run you round in circles 'cause it happens to be their idea of fun
Well you can take a horse to water but you can't make it hold a loaded gun
But you can make it choke on silence, and kill it with a lack of attention
I've been looking at the world outside, it's fair to say it's given me the blues
With its gunmen and its sexists running riot on the internet and news
So much misogyny and racism it feels like there's nothing I can do
Yeah, you could your breath forever, but they're never going to broaden out their views
All these idiots and bastards complicating life when it could be a breeze
Hassling women on the internet and wondering why they never seem that pleased
So it's okay to threaten rape at every woman daring to express her views
Well you're just wasting oxygen
Well, yeah maybe it's not all men
Like anti-choice and anti-vaxxers
And far-right racist rights attackers
People who don't do their research
Or realise how much their words hurt
All the chummy capitalists
And ignorant gun lobbyists
I think I've wandered off my point
So take me to the start and help me sing
If I gave you anything, I'd guess it was the confidence to leave!
